spin around this garden of hope ;
Monday, May 07, 2007 @ 11:40 PM
when we fall, we fall deeper.. :(
some stuffs happened lately. hmm..dun quite wish to mention it. but my life's been pretty screwed up, though (i hope) i doesnt appear so. hmm.yup, life still goes on, despite all the setbacks we may encounter along life's journey. im not an emotionall strong person to begin with, so after all that has happened recently..it certainly makes my heart bleed and tear me awayy slowly.
have been trying super hard to cope..in an absolutely wrong and self-contempting manner-> binge eating. ive been eating a lot more than usual for the past weeks. bigger portions and having more meals in a day. and after stuffing myself with food, i just feel worse..from the guilt. sigh.
mm..watever happens, it'll always help to remain positive as much as possible. hmmm :( kind of saw it coming anyway. should have expected it :( now, im still learning to be emotionally strong, before i break down again. that day i stupidly did something and found blood splattering all over my table. :P
i hardly told anyone about this problem of mine. but i really hope people will still be there for me... :(
p.s. thanks lots nursi for being such a sweet friend, and a good listening ear. love. appreciate ur company that day (: mm.hope to see all my secondary school friends again. miss them loads.
