spin around this garden of hope ;
Monday, April 02, 2007 @ 10:18 PM
apparently i got myself into more and MORE trouble.
wat do those 2 guys see in me that's worth fighting over? sigh. crazy people. i just feel its so unworthy of them to be using up their emotional strength. ive really really gotten myself into an awful mess.. im like stuck in the middle with no one to confide in. :( maybe because even i myself am confused..
one end stands this damn hot guy K (whose good looking, muscular, great body, quite a cute personality for his age, generous and dadadada~), and the other end stands this normal guy E whose so much 'closer to reality' and much easier to communicate with. (actually im beginning to treat him as a brother whose always taking care of me)
yup, so now as im typing all these, there's actually an emotional war going on. between the 2 guys and me. im in such a conflicting situation.
and the PROBLEM is that the 2nd guy E doesnt trust the 1st guy K, because he feels strongly that he is actually really NOT a decent person. actually i think so too..cos some stuffs happened. some stuffs which is totally unimaginable.
its not convenient to state it here. :P
but one thing that i could probably say, is that: he really damn tanned and muscular la! (considering that he is a commander in a fire station) cos i actually got to see his body. when he was changing. haha.
sigh. but apparently ive hurt the 2nd guy a lot. cos he was quite close to me and yet... i sort of betrayed him in the end. :(
