spin around this garden of hope ;
Tuesday, January 09, 2007 @ 11:34 PM
saddening. and super depressing. and.. disheartening as well :'(
apparently, i failed my Math lesson supervision.. i so badly wanted to hide in the corner of the classroom to cry after the supervisor talked to me..
ahhhHHH :( im so super duper upset. i couldnt even get past the tune-in activity. how useless can i get...really. :( if i had a knife with me then, i would have cut myself a few times just to 'release' my hurts.
i tried so hard to suppress my feelings.. didnt want to cry in front of the children, teachers, or qihuan. but it just felt terrible. cos it definitely hurt me a lot, a lot. everthing went totally out of control. its scary really, cos its my first time seeing my children behave in that manner, even the quiet and neutral ones went mad.
i really, really at a loss. i wish i could disappear...
