spin around this garden of hope ;
Friday, December 15, 2006 @ 6:05 AM
hmm. somehow.. the past few days havent quite been easy to pass, even though ive mangaged to pull through till this day. well, it isnt the stress. or watsoever.. i just feel so tired. some times, i find myself collasping on the floor, staring into space with my eyes half-open. and ive been having some crazy obsession that im too fat. which often leads to feelings of inferiority, especially when i see skinny, pretty people. my brother has been scolding me these days..cos i always say that everyone is pretty. everyone is better. everyone but me.
and recently, i flare up at my mum for no particular reason. and then, i'll suddenly feel so guilty inside. and wonder to myself: "What's wrong with you, shine?"
and. and! my sucidal thoughts coming backk again. ahhhH. :'(
i wish there was something one could do to pick up the broken pieces once more... yes, definitely: prayer do works. but during those times when our prayers are unanswered, it might mean that it isnt according to God's plan. i could only hope that i have the wisdom to understand tat......
here's a picture of the water dispenser my mum's friend gave us as a christmas present. cute right. yups.
here's a picture of the water dispenser my mum's friend gave us as a christmas present. cute right. yups.
