spin around this garden of hope ;
Tuesday, November 28, 2006 @ 4:26 AM
just had a super-full dinner. feeling guilty now. cos ive been sort of binging on food these days, just so that i might feel better.. i feel as if im eating my troubles awayy. feeling damn upset now. :(
i saw 'him' in the lift today. the only face i saw amidst the crowd of people. it only lasted a split second before everthing was over.. i was so completely stunned to see him. cos he doesnt study in our block. and i thought he's in hongkong for npcc.
apparently, he saw me too..cos i was in his line of vision. He looked blankly at me, and i returned an empty gaze back at him before the lift door closed. didnt want to enter the lift at all, despite the fact that i was able to squeeze in. :P
but after this incident, i was just so distraught throughout my journey home. so lost and dazed... till now, i still feel so emotionally affected. :( *sigh. i never wanted to lost a friend.
imagine if one of ur close friend tells you that he/she will be there for you, and will still take you as a friend (despite wat has happened in the past), assuring you that you still have a friend in him/her. and yet one day..says that he/she needs some time to be alone, and that it'll be better to keep a distance. and so, you think that it might be temporal. but gradually, your hope dimishes.. everything fades away. so when the day comes when you see him/her right before you, how will you react?...
